I wish i can hate you right know. But guess what, because i love you that much, my heart is breaking this bad and the pain just lingering in my chest. Slowly, i know my heart is dying.
Thursday, April 5, 2018
There are days when i feel i'm nothing.
And the world will keep moving alone when i'm gone .
Maybe 1 or 2 or 3 person will cry. But life will go on.
There are days when i feel so sick with my self. All i want to do just sleeping and never wake up. Leave anything behind.
There are days when i'm such a coward. And don't have enough courage to face my problem. I keep running and running to hide.
There are days when i feel, if you hate me so much, will you hate me too if i die today.
Today is one of that day.
One of my worst day.
I can't keep my mind clear and all i want to do is sleeping for the end of my time.
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
Monday, October 23, 2017
Friday, October 20, 2017
My poor little eyes cry a little this morning.
And i feel better after every hug that i get.
Today, i got a lot of hug. More than i ever got in our last 3 months.
But still, there's a hole in my chest. And an empty feeling that linger on my heart.