Thursday, April 5, 2018

I wish i can hate you right know. But guess what, because i love you that much, my heart is breaking this bad and the pain just lingering in my chest. Slowly, i know my heart is dying.

Suicidal thought

There are days when i feel i'm nothing.
And the world will keep moving alone when i'm gone .
Maybe 1 or 2 or 3 person will cry. But life will go on.

There are days when i feel so sick with my self. All i want to do just sleeping and never wake up. Leave anything behind.

There are days when i'm such a coward. And don't have enough courage to face my problem. I keep running and running to hide.

There are days when i feel, if you hate me so much, will you hate me too if i die today.

Today is one of that day.
One of my worst day.
I can't keep my mind clear and all i want to do is sleeping for the end of my time.

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

What can i do?

To make you love me.
To love you more.
To be with you forever.
To wake up right beside you.
To be the last person that you see at the end of day

Monday, October 23, 2017

A Forgotten Kiss

H+5.

I cut my hair and he kissed me.
He touch me.
Not only my lips but also my soul.
A long one.
A forgotten one.

Break up failed since 3 days ago.
And i wish this will be a good beginning.

Friday, October 20, 2017

PBU - Day 1

Alive.
And survived!
My poor little eyes cry a little this morning.
And i feel better after every hug that i get.
Today, i got a lot of hug. More than i ever got in our last 3 months.

But still, there's a hole in my chest. And an empty feeling that linger on my heart.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Memories

A bunch of things that will hurt you slowly after break up.

Mad.

He mad.
Now he mad.
Now he act like a real boyfriend.