Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Aku Mencintaimu


“aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu kepada api
yang menjadikannya abu…

aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan
yang menjadikannya tiada…”


— Sapardi Djoko Damono-



In My Prayers

in my prayers this morning you became the sky which through the entire night did not close its eyes, a clear expanse ready to receive the first light, a curve of silence in wait of sound

as the sun drifted above my head, you became in my prayers the tips of pines, eternally green and forever presenting abstruse questions to the wind that hisses from directions unknown

in my prayers at dusk you became the sparrow that fluffed its feathers in the mist, alighted on the branch and felled the tassel of the guava flowers and then in sudden excitement flew away to alight on the mango branch

in my prayers this evening you became the distant wind that descended ever so slowly, tiptoed down the path and slipped through the cracks of the panes and door to press its cheeks and lips against my hair, chin and eyelashes

in my prayers tonight you became the beating of my heart that has so patiently endured what seems to be limitless pain and faithfully revealed one secret after another, the unending song of my life

i love you, and for that reason, will never stop praying for your well-being


-Sapardi Djoko Damono-


Wednesday, December 22, 2010

have i told you that i love you?

hei boy, have i told you 'bout how much i love you?

Thanx anyway for the Teddu Bear that you gave for me as my christmast present. You never know how much it means to me. Hehehehe.. Do you think i like it...? Definetely NOT! I LOVE it a lot!! :D It's my first present from you. And it is a Teddy Bear. Hooaaaaaaa.. *can't-stop-smiling*

you know, i wish i can spend my christmast eve with you, but i know i can't. :( how 'bout on 25th? It would be nice to spend all day with you, may i..? Do you know why i wanna do this badly? Because it's our first christmast being together, i just want to make it more perfect with you here beside me all day. Little bit egoist, am i? :'p

Monday, December 13, 2010

sorry

Sorry for being annoying lately
Sorry for my moddy times
Sorry for being rude
Sorry to mess up your room
Sorry for that kissmark that you never like
Sorry for not being there when u need me

sorry..

Monday, December 6, 2010

Thank You GOD

Thanks God, it's almost 5 months we've been together. And i believe there will be another happy-and-sad days between US. No matter what'll happen at the future, i know that right here, right know, i's still desperately in love with him.

Love you boy..


Sunday, December 5, 2010

Happy Dating.. :)

Tomorrow, i have a super happy dating with my BF. You know what's the best part? He come to my home, introduced him to my mom, carried me from and to my home. Weew!! how can'y i feel so happy? :)

And then, we go to Senayan Trade Center. He was lookin for some Kamen Rider action figure, but unluckily, it's still expensive. And we interst to bobble head's figure, but (hell yeah) unluckily, it's dirty, and he thinked did't wotrhed enough to pay 35k idr to buy that thing. hahahhaa. Btw, you know what's bobble head are? it's some kind of action figure,but have small body and big head. If u put it on your car dashboard, it will shake his head when u are driving. :)

Bored here, we moved to Senayan City and decided to watch Unstopable. We bought the ticket and then take a lunch because the movie started at 14.55 and it was still 13.30. I order KFC's twister and he's order Fried Rice at Bakmi GM. We have fast luch ( as usuall) and still have an hour to have another walking time, so we did it. hehehe

The movie is good, but honestly,i don't really like the genre. i prefer horror or drama than action. I prefer Rapunzel than Unstopable, but i didn't tell him. U know why? i love to see his smile and i didn't think he would smile if i push him to watch Rapunzel.

Aaaahhhh, boy. Actually, it's just another dating with you, but why does i love you more now? :)

love you boy. Can't wait for another dating with you.
Can't wait for our first christmas..

Cella
xxxx

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

M.U part 3

Why do i miss you?
by Ashton Whitaker
Why do I miss you?
everything seemed too good to be true
I thought you would always be mine
it seemed everything was just fine
What is it that I miss?
I miss every hug and every kiss
Why do I miss you?
I can't forget how it felt to be with you
I can't forget all the times we had
the good times and the bad
I trusted you with my heart
and now you've torn it apart
All the nights up late on the phone
is now time I spend alone
Wishing you were here with me
gives me nothing but misery
So, why do i miss you?
simply because I can't forget YOU!

M.U part 2

I miss you
by Mandy
I've known you so long
yet our love is so new
I cant hardly wait
till I can finally be with you

You're so far away
I don't know what to do
I spend my days and nights
thinking bout you

I call you on the phone
you call me too
but it doesn't do justice
I want to be with you

You are so sweet,
so handsome and nice
I cant hardly wait
to look into your eyes

It seems like so long
since I saw you last
every day im not with you
is the opposite of fast

Please hurry home
I'll keep waiting
I miss you so much
but my love for you is never fading

M.U

I Miss You
by Kaitlin
You don't know how bad I need you here with me,
I need you more than anything more than I need to breathe

How do I last now that my heart has grown so cold,
Being without you its like my heart was put on hold

How do I stay warm without you to hold me tight,
I wish I was in your arms and everything was right

When I'm with you my body becomes weak,
I want to say I love you but its really hard to speak

I get this amazing feeling from my head down to my toes,
I cant explain it I'm like the only one who knows


I wish I could tell you exactly how I feel,
But words cant explain it this feelings just to real

I miss you so much and I cant wait to see your face,
Cuz when were together my heart begins to race


When I'm with you its like no one can get in my way,
Even when were apart I think about you all day


Thank you so much for always being there for me,
Its love like ours that were always meant to be

Woman's Inside

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Those Kinda

miss those kind of hug


those kind of kiss

i love you boy..

Thursday, October 21, 2010

'' kamu masih sayang aku kan?''

''kalo ak bilang ga gimana?''

''kalo ga ya kita udahan aja''

''menurut kamu?''

.......


Aku takut sayang mendengar kelanjutannya. Sangat takut. Kamu tidak tau seberapa sayangku padamu..

Maaf untuk tingahku yang menyebalkan semalam.

Kamu tau? Selama 2 jam aku menunggu kamu, aku memikirkan banyak hal. Aku takut harus pulang tanpa bertemu denganmu terlebih dahulu. Aku mempertanyakan banyak hal dalam kepalaku.

Kenapa kamu tidak pernah menelponku lagi di malam hari?
Kapan kamu baru akan mengantarku sampai rumah?
Kenapa dy kamu jemput pergi dan aku antar pulang, sedangkan ak?
Apa kamu tau seberapa banyak waktu yang sudah aku korbankan untuk kamu?
Apa kamu tau berapa banyak kebohongan yang sudah aku keluarkan demi mencari alasan bertemu denganmu?
Apa kamu tau seberapa besar susahnya menyembunyikan keberadaan seorang kamu yang mempunyai arti sangat besar untukku dari kedua orangtuaku?
Apa kamu ingat kalau kamu tidak pernah benar-benar berada berada di sampingku saat aku memintamu untuk datang?

Aku tidak pernah menanyakan semua ini padamu sayang, karena aku merasa semuanya hanyalah permintaan egois dari seorang aku.

Kamu tau? Baru saja aku sadar, ini pertama kalinya aku begitu banyak mengorbankan sesuatu demi orang lain.
Kamu tau?

Sunday, October 17, 2010

hari ini aku membenci waktu. Ia berlari terburu-buru di saat aku menari bahagia bersama cinta. Belum puas aku melepas rindu, belum puas ak menghirup udara di sekitarnya, tapi harus berakhir..

Aku benci kamu waktu..

Tak bisakah kau pergi tanpa perlu membawaku ikut bersamamu? Tinggalkan saja aku di belakang dalam bahagiaku. Rasanya aku akan baik-baik saja

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Untuk kamu yang ku sayang

hai kamu, tgl beberapa jam lagi sebelum kita berjumpa. Aku tau mungkin ini terdengar bodoh dan kekanakan. Tapi aku tak peduli. Biar saja dunia tahu, kalau aku sangat merindukan seorang kamu. Aku rindu kamu peluk. Aku rindu setiap ciuman darimu. Aku rindu keberadaanmu di sampingku. Sangat..

Sayang, boleh aku tahu? Apa yang telah kau lakukan pada hatiku? Sehingga setengah mati aku terpikat padamu. Akalku menutup mata terhadap dunia selama aku bisa berada di sampingmu.

Aku enggan sayang unutk mengakhiri setiap pertemuan kita. Sangat berat dan enggan. Waktu seakan berlari terburu saat kau berada di sebelahku. Rasanya baru saja kututup mataku untuk meresapi setiap detikku denganmu, dan ketika kubuka mataku, kutemukan diriku berada di penghujung waktu..

Sayang, besok kita akan bertemu. Saling menuangkan rindu yang membuncah, berbagi ciuman yang tertahan, dan memeluk erat setiap serat hatimu.

Aku berdoa sayang, semoga besok akan menjadi pertemuan yang menyenangkan, tanpa ada tangis yang menodai atau amarah yang merusak.

Sayang, aku menyayangimu sebesar yang mungkin bisa kurasakan.

Aku mencintaimu sayang. Sangat.

Love u,
-C-

He's not my Prince Charming

When i was a little girl, i had been dreamed 'bout my prince charming. He would be so sweet to me. Waiting beside me 'till i felt asleep, came asap when i need him, always wiped my tears at my cry-baby moment, gave me a blowing kiss at our phone-night-call, kiss my forehead in front of his friend, a weekend dating at sunday is a must, accompanied me home after dating, love me without ask me to do anything..

I found one and he's my only but he isn't my prince charming. He's just an imperfect man (or boy? Idk..). He did't want to carry me home and he never gave me a phone night call after we became a couple. I know why but i don't know why too. I do miss his phone call a lot.

Am i just being an egoist girl. Maybe..

But, hey!! I'm just a girl dat need a proof of his love to me. Sometimes, i think he don't love me that much.. :(

Friday, October 15, 2010

i think

I THINK I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU A LITTLE TOO MUCH.
TRUST ME, NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.
NOT EVEN YOU.





Somebody's Me

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

-Enrique Iglesias-

Thursday, October 14, 2010

yesterday today tomorrow

i saw you 7 months ago
i started falling for you 5 months ago
i confessed my feeling 3 months ago
i love you yesterday
'till today i still love you
and tomorrow i will love you more




More than you realize

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

dear you,

hey boy, it's been 2 days since the last day we met, but i already miss u. AGAIN. Missed ur lips, ur hug, ur shoulder, miss my best boy.

Sometimes, i wondering 'bout my last holiday on July. Missed that time, when i can spend my time to be with you. Wake u up in the morning, be the 1st and the last dat greet ur day, having breakfast together, kissing and hugging and cuddling.

I know if i looked like a cheesy-lovey-dovey, but i can't resist my self not to tell the world about this. That i'm crazy over you now. :D

can't wait for this Sunday.

Ilusm

xxx
-C-

Kiss

Kiss is not a proof of love, but it's just one of thousand ways to express it..



*. Miss your kiss. :(

1st posting

Hey.. this is my first posting. Feel free to read, feel free to know. This will be my Unsent Mailbox to my dearest one. :)

At my first posting, i won't write that much. Just wanna say, "I Love You"