tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-87078389254933156792024-03-12T17:59:03.772-07:00Unsent MailboxThere's a bunch of mail for you everyday that never been sent and stuck at hereCellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.comBlogger196125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-43074946511817395742019-12-20T20:14:00.001-08:002019-12-20T20:14:52.851-08:00Imaginary WeddingTau ga apa yang kadang gw lakuin di waktu males kerja?<br />
Buka pinterest, liat konsep pernikahan bule-bule yang minimalis tapi cantik dan instagramable.<br />
Atau gugling baju apa yang nanti gw pake.<br />
Atau kayak sekarang, minta pricelist dari vendor undangan dan souvenir. (love this one!)<br />
kalo ada waktu yang lebih panjang, mungkin sekalian test food. :')<br />
<br />
This should be "that"time of my life, right?<br />
Antara masih ingin dan tidak ingin lagi.<br />
Antara masih berharap dan terus berjalan.Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-7895828988013825422019-04-03T18:34:00.002-07:002019-04-03T18:34:34.857-07:00i need time and spaceI don't know where to start, but this is sucks.<br />
Since a little girl, i always dreaming about my own prince charming, who will love and cherish me with all his heart.<br />
But reality is a cruel one.<br />
i found someone that i think will be the love of my life, and be someone who will treasure me.<br />
OH WELL! He treasure me as his valuable staff.<br />
<br />
i need someone to share my story of the day,<br />
someone to pat my head when i had a messy day,<br />
someone who will hug me tight without any reason,<br />
someone who will be there.<br />
<br />
Not someone who takes his job above everything,<br />
treat his client nicely and treat me like a whore staff.<br />
Someone who will get mad at me when i take my days off on busy days.<br />
Someone who never pay a visit to my mom, even in 3 HOLIdays: xmas, chinese new year, mom's birthday.<br />
Someone who only show his face when my father died.<br />
Someone who may be will meet my other family, where there are another funeral.<br />
Someone who think little of everything i did.<br />
Someone who can't understand what makes me happy<br />
Someone who said everything i done for him, he never ask<br />
Someone who don't love me<br />
<br />
Queens said, too much love will kill you<br />
Well, it won't kill me,<br />
but slowly but sure, it kill the love that i ever had.<br />
It turn love into hate<br />
happiness into sadness<br />
Tears of joy into tears of pain<br />
Securities to insecurities.Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-26789110754214620062019-02-03T08:14:00.001-08:002019-02-03T08:14:19.767-08:00<p dir="ltr">I wish for a hug<br>
And a long kiss</p>
<p dir="ltr">From you who i love from my deepest heart.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-23911198651462567392019-02-03T08:12:00.001-08:002019-02-03T08:12:29.203-08:00Harapanku<p dir="ltr"></p>
<p dir="ltr">Untuk sebuah dekapan hangat dan erat <br>
Untuk tepukan ringan di bahuku<br>
Untuk belaian lembut di kepalaku</p>
<p dir="ltr">Untuk bahu yang mampu menahan beban resahku<br>
Untuk tangan yang menghapus air mafaku<br>
Untuk kaki yang membawaku ke tempat indah</p>
<p dir="ltr">Untuk seseorang<br>
Yang ada disini namun tak terasa ada<br>
Yang berada di tempat terdekat namun begitu jauh<br>
Yang menggengam hatiku dan menyayatnya dengan senyuman</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-45470407685815226852018-04-05T19:55:00.001-07:002018-04-05T19:55:07.384-07:00<p dir="ltr">I wish i can hate you right know. But guess what, because i love you that much, my heart is breaking this bad and the pain just lingering in my chest. Slowly, i know my heart is dying.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-48963222957904006652018-04-05T19:53:00.001-07:002018-04-05T19:53:51.429-07:00Suicidal thought<p dir="ltr">There are days when i feel i'm nothing.<br>
And the world will keep moving alone when i'm gone .<br>
Maybe 1 or 2 or 3 person will cry. But life will go on. </p>
<p dir="ltr">There are days when i feel so sick with my self. All i want to do just sleeping and never wake up. Leave anything behind.</p>
<p dir="ltr">There are days when i'm such a coward. And don't have enough courage to face my problem. I keep running and running to hide.</p>
<p dir="ltr">There are days when i feel, if you hate me so much, will you hate me too if i die today.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Today is one of that day.<br>
One of my worst day.<br>
I can't keep my mind clear and all i want to do is sleeping for the end of my time.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-16741143557196582552018-01-16T06:19:00.001-08:002018-01-16T06:19:18.456-08:00What can i do?<p dir="ltr">To make you love me.<br>
To love you more.<br>
To be with you forever.<br>
To wake up right beside you.<br>
To be the last person that you see at the end of day<br>
</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-77231699601771121902017-10-23T19:16:00.000-07:002017-10-23T19:16:02.767-07:00A Forgotten KissH+5.<br />
<br />
I cut my hair and he kissed me.<br />
He touch me.<br />
Not only my lips but also my soul.<br />
A long one.<br />
A forgotten one.<br />
<br />
Break up failed since 3 days ago.<br />
And i wish this will be a good beginning.<br />
<br />Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-88969225840485377612017-10-20T17:57:00.001-07:002017-10-20T17:57:12.500-07:00PBU - Day 1<p dir="ltr">Alive.<br>
And survived!<br>
My poor little eyes cry a little this morning.<br>
And i feel better after every hug that i get.<br>
Today, i got a lot of hug. More than i ever got in our last 3 months.</p>
<p dir="ltr">But still, there's a hole in my chest. And an empty feeling that linger on my heart.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-6664045124490010282017-10-19T17:56:00.001-07:002017-10-19T17:56:16.813-07:00Memories<p dir="ltr">A bunch of things that will hurt you slowly after break up.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-55448523836537670342017-10-19T01:37:00.001-07:002017-10-19T01:37:10.325-07:00Mad.<p dir="ltr">He mad.<br>
Now he mad.<br>
Now he act like a real boyfriend.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-82589267043019868122017-08-28T17:58:00.001-07:002017-08-28T17:58:56.292-07:00Holiday<p dir="ltr">I wish a cheerful holiday.<br>
You ruin it in a night.<br>
I wish you were here.<br>
But once again you became an asshole.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Thank you.<br>
Your welcome</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-12801688901275852372017-08-13T18:15:00.001-07:002017-08-13T18:15:26.585-07:001 Hari<p dir="ltr">24jam++ ga ketemu.<br>
Begitu ketemu langsung diomelin soal kerjaan.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Padahal yg gw pengen cuma peluk cium atau sekedar "Hallo" pake senyum.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Kenapa sih cinta sesusah ini?<br>
Atau ini bukan cinta?<br>
</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-22896455403201952412016-10-22T21:57:00.001-07:002016-10-22T21:57:27.997-07:00Truth<p dir="ltr">I know the truth,<br>
You dont love me<br>
Anymore</p>
<p dir="ltr">The thread is getting thinner.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-87044830541071709762016-08-16T23:13:00.000-07:002016-08-16T23:13:27.535-07:00aku lelah.<div>
sedih</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
lagi-lagi sedih.</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
kamu tau kenapa.</div>
<div>
kamu pasti tau.</div>
<div>
atau engga?</div>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-46404799305507563812016-04-27T23:09:00.001-07:002016-04-27T23:10:06.255-07:00Jatuh cintaAku ingin jatuh cinta semanis setiap cerita cinta yang berakhir bahagia.Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-14154908628257838362016-04-13T09:10:00.000-07:002016-04-13T09:10:11.261-07:00I.L.UI love you more than you thought.<br />
<br />
Btw, we didn't break up. LolCellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-69342820388549621642016-02-28T18:31:00.000-08:002016-02-28T18:31:25.074-08:00DecisionI made up my mind.<br />
<br />
On our 4th anniversary, i will talk. I must talk.<br />
I'm pretty sure, he won't remember our anniversary.<br />
<br />
We are adults, and not in those teeny kinda of relationship anymore.<br />
We can't waste our times being like this. For how long?<br />
<br />
i hate this depressed feeling, anxiety, and angry in most of our relationship.<br />
He must talk something!<br />
<br />
But, if he remember the date, and bring me a bucket of flower (which is impossible), i'll never think to talk anymore.<br />
<br />
i love, and still love you till this second.<br />
But, if it's only love that i have, we can stand for too long.Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-76227852408100333792015-12-01T02:36:00.001-08:002015-12-01T02:36:21.352-08:00An endless pain<p dir="ltr">It's been 2 years.<br>
And this is painfull. <br>
Really painfully.</p>
<p dir="ltr">'Till i wish i have the gut.<br>
To cut my hand,<br>
And my heart.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I can't.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-20712534581032538702015-12-01T02:18:00.001-08:002015-12-01T02:27:39.777-08:00Dream a little dream<p dir="ltr">There are times like these.<br>
When i felt so depresed.<br>
And the world just like sinking into a gloomy cloud.<br>
Thinking about us.<br>
Thinking about the future of us.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Daydreaming about me and you.<br>
When i look beautiful in white.<br>
When you look so bright like a knight in shining armor<br>
And when we change an everlasting vow.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Or another day dreaming about what we used to be<br>
When you are the most gentle guy in the world.<br>
When i'm the one that you wanna hold everynight.<br>
When the world just revolve around us.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Or straight to the most beautiful dream of all.<br>
When we grow old together.</p>
<p dir="ltr">But a dream just a dream.<br>
Too much dreaming turn yours into a nightmare.<br><br></p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-19972001543531443362015-11-30T18:08:00.001-08:002015-11-30T18:08:08.437-08:00Heart and FlowerYou promise me heart and flower.<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Only to torn it apart.</div>
<div>
Only to brak it into pieces.</div>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-71604234249561372742015-10-09T20:03:00.001-07:002015-10-09T20:04:43.968-07:00Gara-gara apa?<p dir="ltr">Sampai kapan juga gw ga bakal ngaku kalo gw marah-marah karena semangkok mi korea pedes yg diabisin sendiri dan pasti gw ga suka. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Gengsi men! LOL</p>
<p dir="ltr">Pfft. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Ini mood hari ini jadi rusak gara-gara semangkok mi. Brengsek. </p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-60012067874161429372015-09-24T01:06:00.001-07:002015-09-24T01:14:53.892-07:00I tried<p dir="ltr">I tried to stop.<br>
I want to stop.</p>
<p dir="ltr">But i can't stop my self to try again.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Even though everytime i try to reach you, my heart is aching.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I wish my feeling would reach you.<br>
Sooner than later.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Don't you realize it?<br>
Your silent mouth just make everything is going worse for me. <br>
If your words already so painful,<br>
No words will kill my heart, slowly but sure</p>
<p dir="ltr">If i pretend everything will be okay, won't it be?<br>
</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-10469009505047681862015-09-22T05:11:00.001-07:002015-09-22T05:11:00.183-07:00And at the end...<p dir="ltr">i'm crying while hugging him.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Silly.</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8707838925493315679.post-51038066889389124512015-09-22T04:53:00.001-07:002015-09-22T04:53:12.799-07:00Have you?<p dir="ltr">Have you ever get sick with someone you love?<br>
Looking at him makes you feel eant to vomit.<br>
And talking to him kind of disgusting.<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">Well, it's too much.<br>
I know.</p>
<p dir="ltr">But i don't feel any pain.<br>
And in my circumstance this is totally weird.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Me, of all of people. <br>
Me, thehopelessly romantic one.<br>
Me, who cried a lot for him.<br>
Now feel nothing but numb.</p>
<p dir="ltr">6 months.<br>
I'll hold this till 6 months later.<br>
If there are nothing change in this 6 months.<br>
I'll go.<br>
WO from your life.</p>
<p dir="ltr">What is the point of being together when you'renot happy with me?<br>
What is the point of trying to hold on when there's nothing to hold?</p>
Cellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02587743680586456674noreply@blogger.com0