Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Aku Mencintaimu

“aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu kepada api
yang menjadikannya abu…

aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan
yang menjadikannya tiada…”

— Sapardi Djoko Damono-

In My Prayers

in my prayers this morning you became the sky which through the entire night did not close its eyes, a clear expanse ready to receive the first light, a curve of silence in wait of sound

as the sun drifted above my head, you became in my prayers the tips of pines, eternally green and forever presenting abstruse questions to the wind that hisses from directions unknown

in my prayers at dusk you became the sparrow that fluffed its feathers in the mist, alighted on the branch and felled the tassel of the guava flowers and then in sudden excitement flew away to alight on the mango branch

in my prayers this evening you became the distant wind that descended ever so slowly, tiptoed down the path and slipped through the cracks of the panes and door to press its cheeks and lips against my hair, chin and eyelashes

in my prayers tonight you became the beating of my heart that has so patiently endured what seems to be limitless pain and faithfully revealed one secret after another, the unending song of my life

i love you, and for that reason, will never stop praying for your well-being

-Sapardi Djoko Damono-

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

have i told you that i love you?

hei boy, have i told you 'bout how much i love you?

Thanx anyway for the Teddu Bear that you gave for me as my christmast present. You never know how much it means to me. Hehehehe.. Do you think i like it...? Definetely NOT! I LOVE it a lot!! :D It's my first present from you. And it is a Teddy Bear. Hooaaaaaaa.. *can't-stop-smiling*

you know, i wish i can spend my christmast eve with you, but i know i can't. :( how 'bout on 25th? It would be nice to spend all day with you, may i..? Do you know why i wanna do this badly? Because it's our first christmast being together, i just want to make it more perfect with you here beside me all day. Little bit egoist, am i? :'p

Monday, December 13, 2010


Sorry for being annoying lately
Sorry for my moddy times
Sorry for being rude
Sorry to mess up your room
Sorry for that kissmark that you never like
Sorry for not being there when u need me


Monday, December 6, 2010

Thank You GOD

Thanks God, it's almost 5 months we've been together. And i believe there will be another happy-and-sad days between US. No matter what'll happen at the future, i know that right here, right know, i's still desperately in love with him.

Love you boy..

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Happy Dating.. :)

Tomorrow, i have a super happy dating with my BF. You know what's the best part? He come to my home, introduced him to my mom, carried me from and to my home. Weew!! how can'y i feel so happy? :)

And then, we go to Senayan Trade Center. He was lookin for some Kamen Rider action figure, but unluckily, it's still expensive. And we interst to bobble head's figure, but (hell yeah) unluckily, it's dirty, and he thinked did't wotrhed enough to pay 35k idr to buy that thing. hahahhaa. Btw, you know what's bobble head are? it's some kind of action figure,but have small body and big head. If u put it on your car dashboard, it will shake his head when u are driving. :)

Bored here, we moved to Senayan City and decided to watch Unstopable. We bought the ticket and then take a lunch because the movie started at 14.55 and it was still 13.30. I order KFC's twister and he's order Fried Rice at Bakmi GM. We have fast luch ( as usuall) and still have an hour to have another walking time, so we did it. hehehe

The movie is good, but honestly,i don't really like the genre. i prefer horror or drama than action. I prefer Rapunzel than Unstopable, but i didn't tell him. U know why? i love to see his smile and i didn't think he would smile if i push him to watch Rapunzel.

Aaaahhhh, boy. Actually, it's just another dating with you, but why does i love you more now? :)

love you boy. Can't wait for another dating with you.
Can't wait for our first christmas..