It's been 2 years.
And this is painfull.
'Till i wish i have the gut.
To cut my hand,
And my heart.
There are times like these.
When i felt so depresed.
And the world just like sinking into a gloomy cloud.
Thinking about us.
Thinking about the future of us.
Daydreaming about me and you.
When i look beautiful in white.
When you look so bright like a knight in shining armor
And when we change an everlasting vow.
Or another day dreaming about what we used to be
When you are the most gentle guy in the world.
When i'm the one that you wanna hold everynight.
When the world just revolve around us.
Or straight to the most beautiful dream of all.
When we grow old together.
But a dream just a dream.
Too much dreaming turn yours into a nightmare.
I tried to stop.
I want to stop.
But i can't stop my self to try again.
Even though everytime i try to reach you, my heart is aching.
I wish my feeling would reach you.
Sooner than later.
Don't you realize it?
Your silent mouth just make everything is going worse for me.
If your words already so painful,
No words will kill my heart, slowly but sure
If i pretend everything will be okay, won't it be?
Have you ever get sick with someone you love?
Looking at him makes you feel eant to vomit.
And talking to him kind of disgusting.
Well, it's too much.
But i don't feel any pain.
And in my circumstance this is totally weird.
Me, of all of people.
Me, thehopelessly romantic one.
Me, who cried a lot for him.
Now feel nothing but numb.
I'll hold this till 6 months later.
If there are nothing change in this 6 months.
WO from your life.
What is the point of being together when you'renot happy with me?
What is the point of trying to hold on when there's nothing to hold?