I wish i can hate you right know. But guess what, because i love you that much, my heart is breaking this bad and the pain just lingering in my chest. Slowly, i know my heart is dying.

Suicidal thought

There are days when i feel i'm nothing.
And the world will keep moving alone when i'm gone .
Maybe 1 or 2 or 3 person will cry. But life will go on.

There are days when i feel so sick with my self. All i want to do just sleeping and never wake up. Leave anything behind.

There are days when i'm such a coward. And don't have enough courage to face my problem. I keep running and running to hide.

There are days when i feel, if you hate me so much, will you hate me too if i die today.

Today is one of that day.
One of my worst day.
I can't keep my mind clear and all i want to do is sleeping for the end of my time.