I wish i can hate you right know. But guess what, because i love you that much, my heart is breaking this bad and the pain just lingering in my chest. Slowly, i know my heart is dying.

Suicidal thought

There are days when i feel i'm nothing.
And the world will keep moving alone when i'm gone .
Maybe 1 or 2 or 3 person will cry. But life will go on.

There are days when i feel so sick with my self. All i want to do just sleeping and never wake up. Leave anything behind.

There are days when i'm such a coward. And don't have enough courage to face my problem. I keep running and running to hide.

There are days when i feel, if you hate me so much, will you hate me too if i die today.

Today is one of that day.
One of my worst day.
I can't keep my mind clear and all i want to do is sleeping for the end of my time.

What can i do?

To make you love me.
To love you more.
To be with you forever.
To wake up right beside you.
To be the last person that you see at the end of day