An endless pain

It's been 2 years.
And this is painfull.
Really painfully.

'Till i wish i have the gut.
To cut my hand,
And my heart.

I can't.

Dream a little dream

There are times like these.
When i felt so depresed.
And the world just like sinking into a gloomy cloud.
Thinking about us.
Thinking about the future of us.

Daydreaming about me and you.
When i look beautiful in white.
When you look so bright like a knight in shining armor
And when we change an everlasting vow.

Or another day dreaming about what we used to be
When you are the most gentle guy in the world.
When i'm the one that you wanna hold everynight.
When the world just revolve around us.

Or straight to the most beautiful dream of all.
When we grow old together.

But a dream just a dream.
Too much dreaming turn yours into a nightmare.

Heart and Flower

You promise me heart and flower.

Only to torn it apart.

Only to brak it into pieces.

Gara-gara apa?

Sampai kapan juga gw ga bakal ngaku kalo gw marah-marah karena semangkok mi korea pedes yg diabisin sendiri dan pasti gw ga suka.

Gengsi men! LOL

Pfft.

Ini mood hari ini jadi rusak gara-gara semangkok mi. Brengsek.

I tried

I tried to stop.
I want to stop.

But i can't stop my self to try again.

Even though everytime i try to reach you, my heart is aching.

I wish my feeling would reach you.
Sooner than later.

Don't you realize it?
Your silent mouth just make everything is going worse for me.
If your words already so painful,
No words will kill my heart, slowly but sure

If i pretend everything will be okay, won't it be?

And at the end...

i'm crying while hugging him.

Silly.

Have you?

Have you ever get sick with someone you love?
Looking at him makes you feel eant to vomit.
And talking to him kind of disgusting.

Well, it's too much.
I know.

But i don't feel any pain.
And in my circumstance this is totally weird.

Me, of all of people.
Me, thehopelessly romantic one.
Me, who cried a lot for him.
Now feel nothing but numb.

6 months.
I'll hold this till 6 months later.
If there are nothing change in this 6 months.
I'll go.
WO from your life.

What is the point of being together when you'renot happy with me?
What is the point of trying to hold on when there's nothing to hold?

One last time

There will be one day,
When you left me
And i'm broken into pieces.

Now, i'm pretty sure about that.
We'll be going anywhere.

Don't you think so?

I can feel it.

This feeling, my feeling is fading away.
Very slowly, but it is fading.

I can feel it.

It's not the same feeling you used to feel.

And my time is being with you shorter.

Should i cry?

Should i laugh?

Should i angry?

Should i happy?

i love you now,

BUT who kknows about tomorrow?

Daun jatuh karena angin yang bertiup dengan kuat?

atau karena pohon yang tidak bisa menahannya?

I wish

I wish you were here.

Aku berharap kamu disini
Aku berharap kamu bertanya,"ada dimana?"
Aku berharap kamu bertanya, "cincin apa?"
Aku berharap kamu berkata," Hati-hati ya"
Aku berharap kamu lebih peduli

Aku benar-benar berharap seperti itu.
Sampai rasanya mati.

My wish

I wish you to understand. I do really wish from my deepest heart.

Sorry not sorry

My heart is bleeding
And i can't stop my self.

I'm starting to hate you.
And this is getting worse everynight.